Time Matters
I just realized that I have incredibly limited time with all the people in AZ that I love.
I’m supposed to be writing an essay that was due today (so I stayed home to write it instead of going to school to turn it in), and as usual I have little to no work ethic. I ended up on Facebook looking at random peoples’ pictures. (What else is a girl to do with a Monday night?) I saw someone’s picture with a group of friends messing around and having fun. I noticed it was uploaded in August and I thought to myself, “aww. how cute. this was right before they all went off to college.” Then I read the caption: “the last Goodbye”. Basically I got that gut wrenching feeling that one feels right before crying; luckily I didn’t cry or anything, but I was saddened all the same. I realized that this was the last time they were ever young kids hanging out together before being thrust out into the world. This was the last time they had together before they all left for different parts of the country to persue a Bachelor’s of whatever.
And I realized this is going to happen to me too. I’m suddenly not in such a rush to graduate. I’m suddenly not as determined to spend as little time as possible with people who don’t “academically benefit me”. I have about a year and a half before my friends and I leave each other to embark on our own paths of life. This summer I have about three weeks to spend with them. During the school year I’ll be busy, but right now I’m promising myself that I will make time for the people I love while I can still spend time with them… without the 5 hour plane flight.
Whenever I look at this page I hope I see that I’ve accomplished one, then two, then ten, then all of these goals before August 2011:
- Make a music video with the Kingdom
- Hang out with the Wonglie family (some of it anyways)
- Spend some time with the Jello Kid and the Jello Queen
- Go on a ski trip with Eric, Alan, Britta, David, and Bryan
- Race go carts with the Daily Crew
- Go to Harry Potter Land with Vicki, Lisa, and co.
- Camp in the giant tent with the Kingdom
- Have one last cider on the rocks day
- Hit Cali with Omo
- Visit Krystal, Isaiah, and Elijah
- Worship in a park with friends
- Help prepare a youth worship team (Daniel, Zechariah, Morganne, etc)
- Take a trip to a water park with Natasha
- Get boba with Eric
- Patch things up with Al, T, As, P, S, and G
- Live with my wife (Tiffany) for a week
- Spend more time with Celine
- Visit Dad
- Forgive all of them
- Forgive yourself
I’m going to slow down.
I’m going to enjoy life.
No more of this trying not to feel, Carissa. God didn’t create Love so you could hide yourself from it.
